I wrote a really long letter so that I could find forgiveness in myself for the mess our relationship has become, to give peace to someone else and in a way, to let go, last night.
I closed my eyes and felt the pain in my heart again just before I went to sleep. I became a little angry but I managed to sleep just a little bit.
Anger was still in my heart when I woke up. Maybe someday, I'll wake up without feeling a thing. I hope that day comes soon.