Sunday, September 29, 2013

You were the one I thought of when I was having the most difficult time. When I couldn’t say anything to anyone, but had to keep it to myself. When I felt like I was going to die, because it was so hard for me, I wanted to tell you. I had to tell you. You disappeared. The one person, who I came to trust the most in the world, suddenly disappeared.

I love you, you bastard. That’s why even if you have to hurt me in the future, just tell me that you’re sorry. I’ll never be able to find another man who loves me. The pain you’ve caused me is so great, that the remaining scar will be so ugly, that no one is ever going to be able to love me. That’s why… That’s why I want you to tell me that you’re sorry. Then I’ll be able to live again, when you do. If it hurts, I’m going to be hurt anyway, don’t say that everything as fake, okay? Say you’re sorry, tell me you’re sorry.
Even if it’s only sincerity at the moment… Sincerity is sincerity.
When you let go of the past, that’s when your future begins.

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Solo Quedate en Silencio

Te encuentro despierto

me dices lo siento

con una lágrima derramas.

 

Me abrazas, me hielo

me pides un beso

y yo me quedo sin respirar.

 

Solo espera un momento

solo dime no es cierto.

 

Solo quédate en silencio cinco minutos

acariciame un momento, ven junto a mi

te daré el último beso, el mas profundo

guardaré mis sentimientos y me iré lejos de ti.

 

Tengo tanto miedo

y es que no comprendo

que fue lo que yo

he hecho mal.

 

Me abrazas, me hielo

me pides un beso

y yo me quedo sin respirar.

 

Solo espera un momento

solo dime no es cierto.

 

Solo quédate en silencio cinco minutos

cariciame un momento, ven junto a mi

te daré el último beso, el mas prefundo

guardaré mis sentimientos y me iré lejos de ti.

 

Dame tu mano, devulveme el aire

di que me amas que no eres culpable

por lo menos un momento

dime que esto no es cierto.

 

Solo quédate en silencio

acariciame un momento

te dare el último beso

guardaré mis sentimientor

y me iré lejos de ti.

 

Solo quédate en silencio cinco minutos

acariciame un momento, ven junto a mi

te daré el último beso, el mas profundo

guardaré mis sentimientos y me iré lejos de ti.

 

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

If you love that person unconditionally, then you come to possess the right to love them.

Saturday, September 14, 2013

Should I care?

These days, I'm trying to pray as much as possible. It makes me feel a little better. Thank goodness for the faith and belief that have been instilled with me. God has never failed me.

I've been thinking over the past few days and I've realized a few hard truths. He doesn't care about baby now. Or at least he's caring less. Less and less. He's changed his Facebook name so it can't be matched. He's untagged himself from the pictures with baby. He's trying to look as single as possible to the world and denying everything else connected to his marriage and fatherhood to the point that he's ignoring baby's posts now.

That's sad. I shouldn't care. If he doesn't care, then it's his loss. My baby is the sweetest, best baby in the world. I'm a really sweet girl as long as I'm happy. If he wants the shallow worldly wants to fill his life, it's his call to make. As far as I know, those things don't keep people happy for long anyway. I just hope he turns out ok after everything he does.

As for me, I may be crying once again but I'm becoming even stronger. I'll be ok.

Friday, September 13, 2013

Last Kiss

I still remember the look on your face

Lit through the darkness at 1:58

The words that you whispered

For just us to know

You told me you loved me

So why did you go away?

Away

 

I do recall now the smell of the rain

Fresh on the pavement

I ran off the plane

That July 9th

The beat of your heart

It jumps through your shirt

I can still feel your arms

 

But now I'll go sit on the floor

Wearing your clothes

All that I know is

I don't know how to be something you miss

I never thought we'd have a last kiss

Never imagined we'd end like this

Your name, forever the name on my lips

 

I do remember the swing of your step

The life of the party, you're showing off again

And I roll my eyes and then

You pull me in

I'm not much for dancing

But for you I did

 

Because I love your handshake, meeting my father

I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets

How you kissed me when I was in the middle of saying something

There's not a day I don't miss those rude interruptions

 

And I'll go sit on the floor

Wearing your clothes

All that I know is

I don't know how to be something you miss

Never thought we'd have a last kiss

Never imagined we'd end like this

Your name, forever the name on my lips

 

So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep

And I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe

And I keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are

Hope it's nice where you are

 

And I hope the sun shines

And it's a beautiful day

And something reminds you

You wish you had stayed

You can plan for a change in weather and time

But I never planned on you changing your mind

 

So I'll go sit on the floor

Wearing your clothes

All that I know is

I don't know how to be something you miss

Never thought we'd have a last kiss

Never imagined we'd end like this

Your name, forever the name on my lips

 

Just like our last kiss

Forever the name on my lips

Forever the name on my lips

 

Just like our last...

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Losing Grip

Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby

Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real

Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you

Why'd you turn away?

Here's what I have to say I was left to cry there,

Waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare

That's when I decided

 

Why should I care

Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone

You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,

I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone

 

Am I just some chick you place beside you to take somebody's place

When you turn around can you recognize my face you used to love me,

You used to hug me

But that wasn't the case

Everything wasn't ok I was left to cry there

Waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare

That's when I decided

 

 

Crying out loud I'm crying out loud

Crying out loud I'm crying out loud

 

Open your eyes

Open up wide

Why should I care

Because you weren't there

When I was scared I was so alone Why should I care

Because you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone

Why should I care

If you don't care then I don't care were not going anywhere

Why should I care cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone

Why should I care If you don't care then I don't care were not going anywhere