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the coolness

As the days pass by, I feel that cool feeling inside of me. I can smile my dead smile once again. One day soon, I will stop crying and start smiling and the world will never know that the fates have felt so cruel and that inside the shell, everything in me is cracked. I will smile my dead smile and I will start to live again the dead life I used to live. It will be cold and will never feel the warmth I used to feel but I cannot do anything over the fact that everything has been a lie.

If to love is to feel this pain, may I never have loved at all. For the cruel bitter pain cuts so deep to my very soul. The ice surrounds me and the colors have faded through its thickness.

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