Friday, February 15, 2013

Reason to live?

Do you have to have a grand reason to live? Even if I don’t have a reason to live, I live because my eyes open in the morning. Because I still breathe. Why? If a person doesn’t have a reason to live, does that mean he can’t? If living like this is embarrassing, then I’m embarrassed right now. But you know, because I’m still alive, I want to continue living.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

It's not working

We’re going nowhere;

We’re crashing down;

We’re breaking apart;

We’re no longer talking.


And I loved you;

And you loved me;

And we were good together;

But we’re more apart than ever.


And I don’t want you like this;

And I hate me like this;

And I don’t want this for us;

Why are we together?


I hate you just a little;

But maybe I’m getting numb just a little;

And I don’t want this at all;

So can we just stop?

Sunday, February 10, 2013


I just want to fall already so if I die, then it's death. If I don't, I might get stronger.

Friday, February 8, 2013

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Life is always complicated

I went to sleep crying frustrated tears, tired and feeling alone, wondering how everything have gotten the way they have?

Baby has a cold. I’ve got a cold. Hubby is being weird. Mother is so tired.


Sometimes, I know. I just know, God always listens to my prayers. And even when I don’t ask for it, he listens to my heart and he gives me what I truly deserve. And he speaks to me in the voices of other people and when I can’t be reached because I choose not to listen, he takes action.


Warmth comes and with it, the need, the roughness and the gentleness gets expelled into the rush. No pain and it goes on and on. It almost feels like a dream but the throbbing stayed with me till I woke up.


Everything will be ok. Life is always complicated but every roughness fades into smoothness with time. God will always be with me.