Thursday, February 26, 2009

Stars

会えない 時間が僕を
少し大人に変えてくれた
こうして 君と 今まだ
同じ星空眺めている

きっとあの時のすれ違い
試されてたのさ 運命に
離ればなれになって 何が大事か気づいたんだ

キラキラ光 あの星のように
もう一度愛を 輝かせたくて
もう泣かさない 泣かしたくない
君の温もり
強く 強く 感じてるよ

今君のために出来る事
僕は胸の中探してる
君といる この瞬間を
とても大事に想うから

キラキラ光 あの星のように
二人の明日 輝やせたくて
もう放さない 放したくない
君の他にはもう何もいらないから

キラキラ光 あの星のように
君の心で輝きたいから
僕は誓うよ 
このまま隣に ずっといる事
同じ星 二人で見つめて

Stars

During the period when we didn't meet
I changed more into an adult
In this way, I gaze up with you once again
Into the same starry sky Into the same starry sky

That time when we passed each other by
That surely was a test by fate
After we were separated, only then did I realize what was important to me

Just like the stars that shine brightly in the sky
I want to let our love shine once again
I won’t make you cry anymore; I don’t want to make you cry
I can feel I can feel
Your warmth, ever so strongly

Right now I’m searching within my heart
For something that I can do for you
Because right now, this moment with you
Is something that is very precious to me

Just like the stars that shine brightly in the sky
I want make our future together to shine just as brightly
I won’t let you go anymore; I don’t ever want to let you go
I don’t need anything else but you I don't need anything else but you

Just like the stars that shine brightly in the sky
I want to shine within your heart
I promise you
That I’ll stay by your side like this forever
And we'll look up together at the same stars

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Ahhh... Does he care? I'm so sleepy.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

I'm overwhelmed and yet I'm not over the things that I have done. Oh well...

Dan is a little too busy and a little too uninterested today. I wonder just what all that is about. I hope he's taking care of himself.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Dan came home for a month. That was... It was fun and I laughed so much and I cried so much and we went out and we slept and we did so many many things... And yet it was a month and now I'm so sad it hurts even just to swallow...

I don't want to sleep. I don't want to eat. I don't want to do anything else but cry. I miss him so much that I keep thinking, once again, that dying just might be easier than this waiting...

I'm being stupid again... Yes, again... Just how many times do I do this to myself? I wallow in the pain of him leaving me, of me leaving him, of separating... and now, even to the extent that I know that it is merely temporary, I wallow in the pain of it... And twist the blunt knife. Why can't I wallow in the happiness yet savor the pain so much?

I better go to sleep. I have 2 hours before I have to wake up. Can I not wake up until he comes back? Gadz!!! That's so stupid. The problem with me is that when it comes to Dan, he becomes my everything when he is with me. He makes me so happy and alive. And when goes away, I just want to die.