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I want revenge sex

Oh yes I do!!! But I have no idea how to go about doing it.

Two options:

-Talk to the ex and ask him if he's willing to have crazy stupid sex for an hour or so...

-Call up the dangerously easy guy on the phone and ask him if he's ok with casual sex...

But!!! This is really just a crazy idea and I shouldn't do it. I'm just going on my crazy bit.

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