Drinking Milk Tea

I didn’t hate you. I only missed you. I didn’t resent you. I only loved you with all my heart. I love you. I love you. But I still won't tell you.

I saw my ex-husband today. From now on, I might as well start using that term to refer to him. After all, if my Facebook status is separated, his is single, on both of his accounts. Honestly, that stinks but that's life. Also, I really shouldn't care. I dreaded seeing him. I knew it would make me feel bad in the end. It certainly exhausted me. I ended up telling him that I absolutely didn't want to see his face anymore because I wasn't over him and it's too hard for me. Can I get points for honesty? Is it a bad thing to ask why he did the things he did? I've gotten messages of sorry, missing you and all that but when I managed to eke out the question, what do I get back? Total denial of having done anything wrong. And a whack of how you yourself have done your share of evil. It's all so illogical, really. I couldn't help saying that if he did nothing, what evil are we sharing then? I've apologized already and have accepted whatever witch name he&

Hello, life. I'm going to take over now.

I bet this time of night you’re still up. I bet you’re tired from a long, hard week. I bet you’re sitting in your chair by the window, looking out at the city. And I bet sometimes you wonder about me. And I just want to tell you, It takes everything in me not to call you, And I wish I could run to you, And I hope you know that, Everytime I don’t, I almost do, I almost do. I bet you think I either moved on or hate you, ‘Cause each time you reach out there’s no reply. I bet it never, ever occurred to you that I can’t say hello to you, And risk another goodbye. And I just want to tell you, It takes everything in me not to call you, And I wish I could run to you, And I hope you know that, Everytime I don’t, I almost do, I almost do. We made quite a mess, babe. It’s probably better off this way. And I confess, babe. That in my dreams you’re touching my face, And asking me if I'd want to try again with you, And I almost do.

I love you. BUT YOU DON'T NEED TO KNOW THAT.

Do I feel better today because I cried so much last night that I’ve cried all of it out last night? Or because he sent an sms. Or because I know I look good. Or why?   Whatever else, my tears do not flow that easily today.   Thank you, God.

Thank you for the fateful meeting. Thank you for the smiles. Thank you for the bright days, And the laughter-filled nights.   Thank you for the happiness, And the hopes and promises. Thank you for trying, And being strong for a while.   For the once upon a time. For a little happy ever after. For so many little things. And the even bigger dreams.   Happy anniversary. Wherever you are. Whoever you are with. Whatever you may be doing.   Thank you. I hope you are happy.

Life goes on, life goes on Life goes on, life goes on   You sucked me in And played my mind Just like a toy You were crank and wind   Baby I would give till you wore it out You left me lyin' in a pool of doubt And you're still thinkin' you're the Daddy Mac You should've known better but you didn't And I can't go back   Oh life goes on And it's only gonna make me strong It's a fact, once you get on board Say good-bye cause you can't go back Oh it's a fight, and I really wanna get it right Where I'm at, is my life before me And this feelin' that I can go back Life goes on [repeat 2X]   Wish I knew then What I know now You held all the cards And sold me out   Baby shame on you, if you fool me once Shame on me if you fool me twice You've been a pretty hard case to crack Should've known better but I didn't And I can't go back   Oh life goes on And it

Love itself isn’t a crime, but cowardly love is , especially when it hurts the people around them.