Was there something wrong with me? What did I do wrong? What could I have done differently? Why didn’t I see this coming? Why were they unfaithful to me? Was it something I did wrong ? Was it something I should've done? Why am I not good enough? How could they do this to me? Why don’t they love me? Am I a bad person? Is it because of me? Did I make this happen? Did I cause my marriage to fail?
I leaned on someone too much and I suddenly got attached, which is not a good thing. I understand that this might have eventual ramifications. I just never thought it would be so bad as this. I should end it now. I understand that I’m only trying to like someone because they make me feel good but the thing is, it’s moving too fast and I’m not in love. I’m just in like. In all honesty, I’m simply being very much flattered with the attention I am getting and seeking the security of another relationship when in fact, I am not ready for a new one. I’m thankful for the time and the effort and all the flowery words that has come my way. It’s a good build-up for my sense of self after it has crashed but in all honesty, why am I even considering something that is obviously not right? Ok... Time to think... Get drunk again and all that.
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