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I wonder...

I believe that a person will have good fortune as long as everyone else blesses that person. But if one person with a bigger will than everyone else feels ill will for that person, then that person will fail.
I have a lot of faith and my will is strong but what if someone else with an even greater will opposes me? Will I fail?
I don't want to fail and I want to believe in myself.
Please please please let everything be alright.

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