Drinking Milk Tea

I won't marry Dan. I have my pride. Although I wonder just how many times I've turned away from that same pride for him? How many times have I been rejected time and time again? How many times will I have to cry? Am I really myself when I'm with him or am I simply trying to please him? I have my reasons. Unfortunately, loving him isn't enough to get what I want anymore.

Aren't we lucky, bear, to have a love like this? To find a love like this? Even if it sometimes hurt, it still feels good to be alive, to feel alive. Though sometimes life makes me feel like I'm drifting on a crazily wounding river, it's like something to hold on to. Aren't we lucky? It's so scary, though, to have a love like this. To feel this vulnerable. To be this human. To feel like I'm bleeding sometimes, without any cuts and wounds. But it also feels whole. I feel whole whenever I'm with you, as long it's with you. Aren't we lucky, bear, to find each other? Even though we're hurting each other sometimes. I mind but I don't. Or maybe not. It's not a game, truly. I don't ever want to hurt you or get hurt myself. I never really understood it, though, starting from the first time I ever cried, why I hurt this much without reason. I just do. But truly, only you can make me this happy. Even just one moment, it makes me feel grateful, ...

To my favorite teacher Who told me never give up To my 5th grade crush Who I thought I really loved To the guys I missed And the girls we kissed Where are you now? To my ex-best friends Don´t know how we grew apart To my favorite band And sing-alongs in my car To the face I see In my memories Where are you now? Where are you now? Cause I´m thinking of you You showed me how How to live like I do If it wasn´t for you I would never be who I am To my first girlfriend I thought for sure was the one To my last girlfriend Sorry that I screwed it up To the ones I loved But didn't show it enough Where are you now? Where are you now? Cause I'm thinking of you You showed me how, how to live like I do If it wasnt for you I would never be who I am. And I'll never see those days again And things will never be that way again But thats just how it goes, People change, But I know I wont forget you - guitar solo - To the ones who cared And who were there from the start To the l...

Dear Bear, Kumusta? Wala kang pasok today, ano? Wala akong masyadong gagawin today except for a whole lot of paperwork. I hate paperwork pero kailangan siyang gawin... Do you know that there are quadcore laptops available na these days? The laptops sure seem fast now. My poor wee laptop. Oh well... Maybe I'll win the Toshiba laptops they're raffling off in Araneta. I sure do hope I win one. It would be a total blast to get the uber light pink one. Hehe!!! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intel_Core_i7 Toshiba now has the fuel cell for mobiles. Too cool. Technology is way too fast these days, really. http://www.thefonecast.com/News/tabid/85/EntryId/1980/Toshiba-launches-commercial-fuel-cell-for-mobile-phones.aspx I was listening to the radio this morning and I really like the song by Honor Society, "Where are You Now". I miss you. -me ____________________________________________________________ GET FREE 5GB EMAIL - Check out spam free email with many cool features! Visit h...

I can't think straight. I need sleep. I really need some sleep. Life is harsh. I hope that things will become easier at least tomorrow. I miss Dan. I ant hm by my side now.

It's a little lonely being here right now and the life I willingly let myself live. However, some days, I simply try to look forward to another tomorrow, even if I don't sleep through the night. I wish I was better. I wish I was more... I wish I can be perfect though I truly hate the illusion of perfection. I hate it hate it hate it.

Hush I found the Philippines Hush Puppies site. Yay!!! As mentioned before, Hush Puppies are my choice for footwear. However, I only own one pair. Yes, one pair only. How sad. The said pair are the best pair of shoes I have ever bought in my young life, hands down. It's a pair of flats and I got it on a 50% sale. If only I have a pair of heels but thankfully, the office does not particularly care what kind of shoes one is wearing... Personally, I really want a pair of Fascinate . I tend to like boots especially with this rainy weather and leather ones are best as they do last quite a long time. Time will tell if I'll ever be able to acquire these but as of now, I'm eyeing them...