Drinking Milk Tea

I'm tired although I'm not. I'm a person who complains a lot but rarely does anything about it. *sigh* I'm weird but I don't particularly mind that. It's ok with me if everyone thinks I'm weird. Well... I'd just like to be accepted in spite of my weirdness. Hmnnn... Actually, I don't mind not getting accepted as long as no one messes with me. It's when the mess gets way too out of hand that problems occur. Ahhh... Tired. Want to sleep now. ____________________________________________________________ GET FREE SMILEYS FOR YOUR IM & EMAIL - Learn more at http://www.inbox.com/smileys Works with AIM®, MSN® Messenger, Yahoo!® Messenger, ICQ®, Google Talk™ and most webmails

I love him but I also hate him. I don't know. He makes me cry like crazy and yet he doesn't know. I would tell him but them, hell to everything. He's making me mad. I hate him hate him hate him. Because I love him. Ahhh... We talked... but then he turned into father-type lover again. I was choking by the end of it. Ahhh!!! I couldn't even tell him I love him because I already felt like yelling at him. Ahhh!!! I know I'm being immature but he's being unkind. I waited for him to talk to me and then when we were talking, I was replying but the connection was slow and he had the temerity to say I was uninterested. Argh! Damn it all!!

Ahhh... I kept posting in Jpopasia... It's so fun... Really it is... But then... I'd rather post here. I can complain here a little more. Hehe! Because no one really reads my posts here. I just want Dan to talking about money for a while. I will pay him back eventually. If only he's stop talking so much about it. Argh!

Is he cheating? Is he not? Ahhh!!! What to do? What to say?

I'm having a lot of mixed emotions as the last day in Accenture comes. It's weird. Really weird. I won't miss Accenture. That is, Accenture, the company itself. I won't. I feel betrayed in a lot of ways. I won't miss my boss. She's human, I understand, but it's too hard trying to understand the inner workings of her brain. I'd much rather just let everything go. Well... I'm going!

I am not a toy. I am not a picture. I am not a video. I am human and I cannot take it anymore. I am in love. I live to live for him. I live to love him. But my love doesn't reach him anymore. I guess I am worthless after all.

I don't want him to leave me. I just love him too much.