I would like to clarify that I never told you to your face that your relationship with your kids, especially Jaja, is dysfunctional. Do I think it? Yes. Would I tell Jaja? Probably. Would I ever say it to your face? Very likely not. I am non-confrontational. I prefer not ever telling you these things. I don’t ever tell you these things because it will never ever change anything for the better and will likely produce this obvious anger and resentment on your side. Be resentful all your want. It is your prerogative to do so. It’s my own prerogative to ignore you. In the end, I’m better off just ignoring you.
I want to say I’m ok without having to lie but I’m not. I’m worried about a lot of things right now they clog my brain. It must be why I didn’t sleep today. I should settle this life I’m living. I should find closure for all these worries. I should stop wanting more than what I already have. I should be done. However, what should be done has never been what I truly do. Smile and bear it. Ignore the bad thoughts. Just smile and bear it.
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