Drinking Milk Tea

I love him but I also hate him. I don't know. He makes me cry like crazy and yet he doesn't know. I would tell him but them, hell to everything. He's making me mad. I hate him hate him hate him. Because I love him. Ahhh... We talked... but then he turned into father-type lover again. I was choking by the end of it. Ahhh!!! I couldn't even tell him I love him because I already felt like yelling at him. Ahhh!!! I know I'm being immature but he's being unkind. I waited for him to talk to me and then when we were talking, I was replying but the connection was slow and he had the temerity to say I was uninterested. Argh! Damn it all!!

Ahhh... I kept posting in Jpopasia... It's so fun... Really it is... But then... I'd rather post here. I can complain here a little more. Hehe! Because no one really reads my posts here. I just want Dan to talking about money for a while. I will pay him back eventually. If only he's stop talking so much about it. Argh!

Is he cheating? Is he not? Ahhh!!! What to do? What to say?

I'm having a lot of mixed emotions as the last day in Accenture comes. It's weird. Really weird. I won't miss Accenture. That is, Accenture, the company itself. I won't. I feel betrayed in a lot of ways. I won't miss my boss. She's human, I understand, but it's too hard trying to understand the inner workings of her brain. I'd much rather just let everything go. Well... I'm going!

I am not a toy. I am not a picture. I am not a video. I am human and I cannot take it anymore. I am in love. I live to live for him. I live to love him. But my love doesn't reach him anymore. I guess I am worthless after all.

I don't want him to leave me. I just love him too much.

I don't want him to leave me. I just love him too much.