I don't feel bad about what is happening to us right now. Three more months and we're standing in a precaorious cliff. Who knows what tomorrow brings? I don't care. Maybe the past is worth it enough for me not to regret the future. I love him, though.
I want to say I’m ok without having to lie but I’m not. I’m worried about a lot of things right now they clog my brain. It must be why I didn’t sleep today. I should settle this life I’m living. I should find closure for all these worries. I should stop wanting more than what I already have. I should be done. However, what should be done has never been what I truly do. Smile and bear it. Ignore the bad thoughts. Just smile and bear it.
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