Drinking Milk Tea

I leaned on someone too much and I suddenly got attached, which is not a good thing. I understand that this might have eventual ramifications. I just never thought it would be so bad as this. I should end it now. I understand that I’m only trying to like someone because they make me feel good but the thing is, it’s moving too fast and I’m not in love. I’m just in like. In all honesty, I’m simply being very much flattered with the attention I am getting and seeking the security of another relationship when in fact, I am not ready for a new one. I’m thankful for the time and the effort and all the flowery words that has come my way. It’s a good build-up for my sense of self after it has crashed but in all honesty, why am I even considering something that is obviously not right? Ok... Time to think... Get drunk again and all that.

Ahhh!!! I’m starting to get attached. Time to start searching for nonsense again.

When you love someone, your feelings tend to border on obsessive -- and when they ask you to do something because 'if you loved them, you would,' it's not in your nature to hesitate. Just this once, though, think before you respond. Are you being manipulated? It's probably in your best interest not to be so available right now. Don't answer the phone for a day -- or two.

The weekend was terribly fun!!! It was!!! I went to the park and swung around lang. I competed with the 10-year-old next to me on who can swing higher. I won. Mas mabigat ata ako. And then umakyat ng bundok on a bike. It was cold. Going down without the motor on was fun. Blasting jpop music was even more. And got wasted on a bottle of beer pagkagabi. I'm such an easy drunk pero mabilis naman to sober up. I'm happy that I went through that. Anrami ko pang hindi nagagawa pero all things come to those to wait naman. That was just Saturday. Sunday tinulog ko ng 14 hours. Hahaha!!! And then I ate. So good to finally allow myself these things. Simply put, the weekend was fun.

I’m afraid of tomorrow. I hope it ends well.  

Yay!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6V2eCFsDkK0   This is great!!! It’s weird how life actually seems like it. As long as you hide your tail, no one will be able to shatter you.